understanding....

I don't understand why things happen the way they do.
I dont understand me, who i am, what i believe in.
I dont understand why im so mad at sean, when all he did was go find happiness.
I dont understand how i can be surrounded by people who are crazy in love wiht one another, and yet, i cant make myself care about anyone that way.
i dont understand whats wrong with me.
I dont understand why my faith in God is gone.
i dont understand why i spend a day crying over something that should ahve left me feeling something, and the next day, find i just dont care.
i dont understand where my feelings have gone.
i dont understand why im so hurt, but i cant pinpoint what is hurting me.
i dont understand why i cant keep my best friends.
i dont understand what the hell is wrong with me.
i dont understand why i cant keep ym happiness.
i dont understand why people cant read my mind and give me what i want.
i dont understand why i cant be ok with the fact that everyone has someone they would rather be around.
i dont understand why someone cant just want to be around me, and me feel the same way.
i dont understand why the government can tell me i cant be with someone.
i dont understand why im ok with being hidden.
i dont understand why i know it wouldnt cahnge the wyas things are, and im ok with it.
i dont understand how i ever became this way, started doing these things.
i dont understand why it doesnt bother me.
i dont understand where lori went.
find me, please?