i find it...

Amusing, that people always joke about how gulible i am, how naiive and blonde. How i always allow people to walk all over me, even though it bothers me, bcause its jsut what i do. I dont know hwo to be any other way. I find it amusing that this was always something epople joked about, and yet, i allowed it to happen in a serious situation. I believed him, when he told me he want with anyone else. Did i think about the fact that guys lie about shi like that all the time? no. i wanted to believe it was true, so i did Then the truth comes out and its like...."oh...." i Should have known. The signs are all there. They were all along. That crap about ym age, and his reputation was jsut that....crap.
People knew he was with her, and he didnt want her finding out. LOL. He finding out. Cuz me? i mean who cares right? I'm just some naive highschool girl. I'm just a "friend". I'm just that big fat joke that gets to sit here and pretend like nothing i wrong in her life. Like i got to sit there last night, knwoing the guy i was seeing wasin teh next room with his girlfriend. Like i've been sitting here all along oblivious to teh fact that i was being used. That i was being entirely taken advantage of. And why? so he could go play boyfriend with someone else, and have me when he needed change of scenery. Best yet though, is that he hasn't said anything. LOL not one word to me. It's like, "well i guess ill jsut pretend like she doesnt xist and maybe she'lll just drop off the face of teh planet". Maybe i will. Or maybe ill just get the fuck over this and never trust anotehr guy again. Fuck him. Screw me for allwoing ymself to be taken advantage of.