Creeping its way into the back of mind at every possible moment is the fact that maybe Tyler is cheating on me. Ok, i would never find out even if he was, unless he found somebody better and left me, but i look at his ex girlfriends and even some of his friends now, and i dont compare. Most of them are models, and some of them are Calander girls so of course they ahve these AMAZING bodies that anyone would kill for. And no doubt 90% of them are sluttier then a toliet seat....so it just sucks...i mean, he goes off to denver adn salt lake and goes to clubs and bars and shit...and im sitting here wondering what he is doing.
becuase i want to belive he is honest and faithful to me, but how do i really know?
I HATE THIS!!!
i wish i would know so if he was i could move on adn forget about him and the mistake i am undoubtedly making.
you know?
i like him. Alot. its different with him then with anyone else. But i cant help wondering if im only with him because its always been a fantasy to be wih an older guy. I dont know, maybe not, but....ive never been with a younger guy. Everyone ive ever dated has been at least three years older....i think there is something wrng with me. Nothing is ever good enough. Even when it is i talk myself out of happiness!
OMG!!! kill me please?
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