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feel like something iis driftig away but you dont know how to pull it back. Like its a piece of wood out to see, you can see it from the shore, but you can't find anything to pull it back with. Thats how i feel. A friend is drifitng and its like im letting them get away because i dont know how to fix it. my mind tells me its easier this way, that i dont need to worry bout it cuz its one less heartbreak ill have to endure in the end. but it still makes me sad. i want to stop it, but at the same time, its easier to jsut let it go. Why am i such a horrible person?