i don't know if God exists. Or if the one Christians believe in is real. But i dont want anythign to do with a God that sends people to hell for learning more about this world he put us into. For trying to find out how things work here. For not just blindly accepting what is all around us. If i get sent to hell for wanting to understand things, then its worth it. I'd rather burn in hell for the rest of eternity then go to heaven with a God that dooms people all because they wanted to know more. Or because they don't worship him. I can't make myself blindly believe in something i dont understand. None of it makes no sense. And if i'm punished for that? i don't want to know a God that would punish someone for that.
In a prefect world, a person would go to heaven for living there life ot the best of there ability. For spending there life trying to better themselves, and help others. Not just because they had a relationship with God. If i'm not asking for his help, or any of his "benefits" on earth...is that really a reason to send me to hell? Becasue i don't understand, therefore i'm not behind this faith.....i'm going to be sent to hell?
how is that ok? How is that justice? A God so....forgiving? forgive me for not understanding. Forgive me for wanting to know more about this life im living. To know more about how things work. Forgive me for making mistakes...but also understand that im trying. And that some people are good. Understand that I'm trying to be the best person i can with the ability you gave me. And thats all i can do.
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God gives people a choice. If he wanted robots who mindlessly followed him then there would be no Hell. He longs for us to choose him, and it pains him when we don't, but there are consequences. Is it fair? Yes. God showed us grace unlike anything we deserve already. We didn't choose to love him, and we choose the same thing day after day, but He still loves us. He sent his son to die on the cross in our place - yes, we deserve to be separated from a holy God because we're not good. But God gives us grace in allowing us to choose His son, and true life. Do we still screw up. Oh yeah. Does God know that? Yes. God is so forgiving if we just ask. We can't work hard enough or be good enough to be His child, but that's where Christ comes in.
I know you probably didn't want to hear any of that and will probably blow it off, but I hope it at least gives you something to ponder. I'm actually not a religious fanatic - I'm a college student who happened to stumble past your blog. God loves you. I really mean that.
http://everystudent.com/ -- check it out. I hope it will help you make sense of things.
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